Steve Clarke's email letter of 3 November, 2003:

 

a personal report of the southern California fires

 

Steve Clarke is a deputy Sheriff in East San Diego County, and sent the following email to his brother, David Clarke, who lives in Siskiyou County, just a few days after the height of the southern California fires.

Dave prefaces his brother's email: "My brother Steve is a deputy sheriff in east SD County, as is his wife Laurie. He wrote this email to his siblings. He has given permission to me to allow it to be distributed and posted on web sites."

"* Krista and Austin are Steve's children (18 and 13 years of age), who
were with their mom at her house. * Joe and Paula are Steve's in-laws."

 

Steve's email:



Hello all,

I don't know if this is gonna work or not, but I'm gonna try to send everyone the same e-mail.

I read over what I just wrote and realized I jumped around a lot. Different things kept popping into my head, so that's why it kinda reads all jumbled up....sorry.

Well, hell week is over. Between getting awoken by some hysterical girl at 4 in the morning screaming/crying about fire and horses(A two minute, one syllable sentence containing no consonants uttered by Krista), and working 60 some hours of overtime in 4 days evacuating people and sucking in a little bit of smoke, we are all almost back to normal. Me personally, I saw a lot of crap I hope I never have to see again. Houses literally exploding when the fire line was still 100 yards away, entire hillsides of forest going up in flames in a matter of seconds, burnt out motorhomes in which 4 people died trying to escape the flames, dead horses that looked like they had been boiled then BBQ'ed, and the scariest of all, Walmart with fire completely surrounding it about 1 mile from our house.

I have never been so exhausted in my life, both physically and emotionally. All of us working the strike teams for the fire found ourselves finding humor where ever we could just to help us get through. Mark and I wound up on the same platoon the last day. On of the guys had some cigars that he passed out. At one point, the fire came rushing down the hill right at us in Guatay (between Descanso and Pine Valley). After about 10 water dumps from helo's, and some hard work buy some fire crews, the fire decided to stop at the street and burn along the road away from us. We all thought it would be a good picture if we lit the cigars up and stood with the fire crews in the background. It was safe, so don't get mad, the ground we were standing on had already burned the day before. The picture of me and Mark came out great. I smoke maybe one cigar a year, and each time I do, I cough and hack like Mrs. Hardy used to. I had already sucked in so much smoke from the fire that I inhaled the stoggy like I had been smoking fro years.

I took about 200 pictures over the four days. I told myself I would not take any pictures of houses burning; I didn't think that was right for some reason. However, I did take some of houses after they had burned.

On the first day, my partner and I got assigned to a platoon that ended up in Julian to start giving evac notice to all the residents in the Pine Hills and Wynola areas. The first place I drove to was to Joe and Paula's house about 2 tenths of a mile before William Hiessy State Park. They were surprised to see me to say the least. The fire actually started about two miles from their house, but with the santa ana winds blowing, their house was originally pretty safe. In twelve hours, the fire burned from there all the way to 805 in Clairmont Mesa, then it turned around. At about 4 the next morning, they got the "Get the hell out now or burn with your house" notification from some other scared deputies. Luckily, they got out. Their house went up about 2 hours later. They are staying with us now, and seem to be doing OK with everything. They have already bought a 40' trailer they will put on the property after they get rid of debris. They went up two days ago and were able to find some collectable porcelain cups, doll faces, and melted jewelry. The brand new boat they just bought a month ago didn't even have a black smudge on it. The fire burned right around it to get to their house.

I saw weird stuff, like a temporary car port made out of PVC pipe covered by some kind of canvas standing untouched by flames about ten feet away from what used to be a house. WHY?... That house was the one Laurie and her ex-husband, Mike, built. Part of our job now is to protect the victims of the fire from the scum of the earth that prey on them. The law calls them looters, we have other names for them. We make contact with anyone we see picking thru the rubble to make sure they are the owners of the ash. I talked to one man who was standing next to his "fire safe" in the middle of his pile of rubble. The door to the safe had been blown off and was about 25 feet away from the edge of where his house used to be. Every other safe I saw still standing still had its door on, but this one was different. I asked the owner what he thought had happened. He had already recovered some of the guns that were scattered about the rubble from the blast. I asked him he if thought the ammo might have blown the door off. He said he didn't keep any ammo in the safe, He did however have a 72 year old bottle of scotch. The closest we could figure is that the scotch vaporized and blew the door off.

Most of the safes are not able to be opened. The locking mechanisms all melted. Those that have been opened just have a little pile of ash in the bottom of them. The safes are still there, but the contents are all burnt up. Joe and Paula went back up to Julian today to have a safe guy cut theirs open.

The first day of the fire, I got called in at 0430 hours, it was Laurie's regular day to work so she went in at 10. The fire had crossed over 67 and was gutting its way through eastern and southern Poway. (Randy Jones' house was one of the first to go in Poway). Laurie was evaking houses near Espola and Garden right in the middle of the fire storm. She got on the news that night. At one point, she and her partner were driving their cars down Garden Ave. in the thick smoke when she heard a load crash on the top of her car. Matt was behind her about 100 yards. She pulled over after hearing the pop and discovered the two left sidelights on her light bar were gone. She had hit a downed power line. Pretty bad huh! Not as bad as Matt. He tore off the entire light bar from his roof.

My platoon was working the Descanso area on third day. We saw funny stuff like Harleys parked way out in the middle of 1-acre dirt horse corrals. Not so funny the next day when we returned and the Harleys were still there but the owner's house was not. We're driving along in the Pine Valley area making P A announcements to evac when a guy on a Honda crotch rocket comes ripping around the corned, locks his breaks up, and motions for me to roll my window down. The knucklehead screams at me saying, Do you know a safe place I can put my bike? I gotta find a safe place for it, then I'll run back up the hill and get my wife!!! Remember my mention of trying to find humor; we all just started laughing hysterically. Either this man's priorities were all screwed up, or his wife was just butt ugly.

The first day we were out, we were assigned to keep people out of the Shadow Hills area About 2 miles from our house. It's a one-way in/one way out type deal with all the houses being in the millions of dollar range. It's the area just west of Crest, and it too, was under marshal law. Four huge houses burned up there. We contacted a man standing in the middle of his rubble, it was (a retired major league baseball umpire). He was crying. I started to get all teary eyed myself, with the other three deps from my car. We turned around and saw a guy get out of his car and start to take pictures of Paul amid his ash. I ran over to the guy and told him he had to leave. The guy told me it was a public road and that he had every right to be there. I informed him otherwise, nicely the first time. The guy told me to pound sand. I got a little pissed off and asked him for his driver's license. He asked me why I wanted it. The real reason was to write his info down so if we caught him up there again he would go to jail. What came out of my mouth was a little different. I told him I wanted his address so I could have friend go torch his house and take pictures of him crying in the middle of it. The guy got into his truck, looked at me, and apologized. Whew!!!! I got away with that one!!!!

Nothing can describe the vastness of the destruction down here. Just on my beat alone, about 60 houses went up. The fire ripped through Moreno Valley and came within 100 yards of burning Krista and Austin's house. The whole eastern slope of the hill going up to Crest is gone (about another 100 houses). The valley leading up to Crest from the west is gone (more houses). Muth Valley, which was a community of million $ houses about 3 miles up Wildcat canyon road is like a moonscape. There are only 8 houses still up there compared to over 100 that used to be. Barona indian res got hit hard. But the casino is still there, DAMMIT!! Haven't seen Scripts Ranch or Tierra Santa in person. Alpine lost a lot of houses. Harbison canyon is all but gone. Both campgrounds in Cuyamaca are gone except for a couple of buildings here and there. Cuyamaca Lake has no more trees around it, just black sticks everywhere. It looks like it does everywhere else. Remember the mountain on the north side of the lake that had all the cabins on it? It's barren except for the fire station and two houses.

Word has it that the Indian reservations down here are all getting together and are going to pay for complete re-construction of any fire fighter's house that burned. That's very cool. Here's something I think is even cooler. Austin's football team played it's last regular season game last Saturday. They killed Steele Canyon(Rancho San Diego/Jamul) 43-0. Three of the kids on Austin's team lost their houses to the fire. Every Friday night, the team watches films of the last game at a church just down the street from our house. This last Friday, our team got an unexpected visit from the kids on the Steele Canyon team who they had just humiliated. They came bearing VCR's, TVs, play stations, stereos, clothes, food, you name it, they brought it for the three on our team who had lost everything. There still are some good people out there.

We keep looking the bright side of this fire. San Diego County is pretty damn ugly right now..........but it will be really pretty 2 years from now. It just won't look the same!!!!

I want to thank all of you for calling and making sure we down here were all OK. WE ARE! I could write pages of pages on what it was like down here, but I won't. You'll just have to ask us the next time we talk.

Love ya all,

Steve




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